i'm feeling tired, slowly calling my mind back into my own body
i've been trying to block it all out. all i feel is screaming inside me, nothing but screaming in my head
i just want to take a breath, i just want to be myself, feel myself, feel okay in this skin
nothing feels real. this is why you write down your thoughts, because they're gone, second by second
you'll keep vacillating between okay and utterly decimated, and from moment to moment you won't be able to remember what came before
you're still lost in a sea of trauma, even if you've been more or less floating in these waters since conception
